全都 不见了

Words I never tell, words I can't tell, doesn't mean it had to be told. Its because even if i tell someone, no one would listen. So why do you even bother to tell. You can't expect someone to be with you all the time, all you can is depend on yourself. Its just like giving trust on someone so much, you'll get more disappointment in the end. I can't be selfish to own you for whole time. Yeah.

I feel like I'm a replacement for someone else. I only replace the people that you need which is not there, when they're back, I'm thrown away. Seriously I won't even complained about it, because maybe I don't even deserve it, too. Or you can call it, I am willing to do that myself, as I loved you as my FRIEND. I will be there when you need me, I will stay behind when you don't need me, and back you up when you fall down. At least its the only thing I can do. 

I don't like to see you got hurts, I feel the pain too. I don't like anyone to bully my friend. I will hit you in the ass if you do. To be true, I don't know what the heck I'm talking about. I took my friend as everything.

到底什么是安全感？

I'm getting more confused, so lost. I feel so scared, I don't know what to say, but no one would notice. 

I can feel there's a big distance between GOD and me, but I don't know how to fix it.

What if I'm the only one left behind.... ....

Trying to seek.......

到底那是他们虚假的一面 还是我被留在后

The feeling of fear is increasing everyday,

I can't help myself falling deeper and deeper again.

I need someone so much that I can't even open my mouth

Even if I have something to ask my parent, I can't even open my mouth

I don't know how, I don't know why

Sometimes I feel stupid with every move I did

I really feel lost and confused 

我连我最基本的信心也 不 见 了 

我不知道 它们 多到那里去  

连我的心也被偷了

怎么办

我很不想在你面前 奔溃 哭泣

不想让你看到 你可能觉得 是我 软弱 虚假 的一面

躲到我自己的世界里

在幻觉里

也许是自己欺骗自己的方法？

我累了

真的累了

好多事情想诉说

但我真的不懂怎么用言语表达

「我不要一个人在森林里慢慢腐化而去的命运」 

我的深索毫无疑问已经没有了希望

或说回来你已经是第几个人了？

只有虚幻的身体的人类...

凭依在不会老去的身体里

这永不断绝幻想

到底欺骗了我几次？

罪过与惩罚，都是我自己贪恋永生造成的

alone crying trying to sleep 

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很久很久以前，少女XXX前去森林

最后却传说她迷失了在那里

她永远放逐于这孤独的世界

很想和谁相遇，很想说说话，很想被人爱

欲望化作幻觉日日折磨她

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Follow the notes upon a journey

At first sight marks one's destiny

Once the voyage comes to an end

Return lies within hasty keys...

我刚刚睡着 天慢慢破晓