我知道那个人永远不会是我

"There is a lot of times, a lot of people are beside you. Yet you seems to focus on the people that are not beside and miss out those you are with. End up losing both."

当时，你很想和她1在一起，可是她1却在别人旁，而忘了在你另一旁是她2，
现在，你很想和她2在一起，可是她2也在别人旁，可是翻开-回忆-，她2却在身旁
只是当时不懂得珍惜，结果两边都失去了.....

那... 是该高兴.... 还是....？

如果你只能拨一通电话，你会拨给谁?

我想... 那个人肯定不是我，对吧？

（我对自己傻笑，也觉得自己很可笑）

Who Am I???

我凭什么？！

明知道你们是不变的定律，I should stop lying to myself, and be contented to what I have

Instead of asking more, that wasn't even suppose to be mine

我害怕故事走不到一半 你心裡早就已經有了答案
我不過問 只是彼此 的心被捆綁
連沈默时都真的很痛很痛.........

我嫉妒妳的愛　氣勢如虹..
像個人氣高居不下的天后....
你要的不是我　而是一種虛榮...
有人疼才顯得多麼出眾... :/

我陷入盲目狂戀的寬容..
成全了妳萬眾寵愛的天后....

我沒有瘋 我只是很難過   我沒有瘋 我只是很脆弱  
就算再痛 我也會讓我們自由  這才是我 一個坦白的我 
時間走過 我只是還難過   我不想留 這傷口還在痛  
我沒有瘋 是當初忘記了喊痛  怎麼不懂 我只是沒有說
都沒有說 都沒有說...... 

让心跳停了 时间就会暂停
想告诉你我只会跟你到这里
让大雨淋湿我 不会再有像童话般的清醒
让心跳停了 我们就到这里....
我们本来就不该会有会结局...
我静静的换气 瞬间失去了力气.....

我想著你　可是你卻不讓我靠近
多希望在這個季節裡　還有你 時間就停止在這裡

還要多久　我才能夠在妳身邊　等到放晴那天　也許我會比較好一點
從前從前　有個人愛妳很久　但偏偏　雨漸漸　把距離吹得好遠
好不容易　又能再多愛一天　但故事的最後妳好像還是說了拜拜

反正你早就想离开我，原来你假装很爱我..... 那么久

明知道 你只是 我应该 忘记的人~ .....

你会不会觉得，“只可惜因为我不是她？”

我知道那个人永远不会是我...

My Wishlist

Am I even asking too much sometimes? I wonder.
But I want those stuff badly XD
Well, my recently wishlist:

First of all, I want a new phone. I need a new phone badly. I never buy a phone, okay? lols . My current phone was from the floor XD the previous 1 was my brother's. Now I needed a smart phone? well, if I wanted the internet plan, its kinda expensive. So overall I'm still thinking about it.

Next, I need a new speaker. Gosh, I cannot stand the sound of music if its horrible. I can't stand the lousy quality it gave me, like my current speaker == they are old, like 10 years ago, well better than nothing. I got no choice but to use them temporarily now. At least I still can do something about it with my iTunes on the equalizer. I wanted a new speaker badly, so that I can enjoy music, and listen to every sound... and some surdof.

And.... I want a world map. I've wanted this for a long time, but I show no action. Until recently, I was like, longing for 1 ? lol I even walk to shops to find it. but it was so expensive, like rm 99.00 = = I can't afford that much, cause I'm saving the money to buy something XD I'll tell about it next. I don't know what caught me into the world map thingy, but for now I just like to know where are the locations ... and i think its interesting? I wanted a world map, with all the labels of country, yeah. So I can know clearly where is it.

I want money! LOL. I want money, to buy the shirt, pants and a t-shirt I want. Its a brand from Taiwan, and the design just simply caught my heart? But its soooooooooo expensive! I also wanted money to buy presents for people. I'm broke, lol. Really broke.

Jing's album is releasing too :( I must get the album! Support original disc! Say NO to pirated CD-s . XD I got jing's book, well. the book got 2 cover. I felt like having both of them, but I should say no to that, cause its really wasting ==

Ok. I always liked music. I love music so much. Besides piano, I mean I gave up buying a new piano. Its unnecessary. I'll buy a grand piano when I have my own house next time~ and not to forget, my music room :D Back to topic, I wanted to buy cello and violin. Where am I suppose to get money for that lol I always wanted to learn violin since I was small, but I think mum not allow? Cause I'm tired of piano that time. She say I might get bored of violin too. Now I'm caught by cello too == because of a drama, I love the sound of cello so much. And I think violin and cello could make a great combination! I could play them, record them, and combine them into a video, hehe. I don't have money to buy all those D: Despite of these string instrument, If I'm rich, I'm gonna get myself brand new guitar. I'm sick of my old guitar. It sounds so.... = = I love GIBSON <3 I want GIBSON! Acoustic and Electric, and its going to cost a lot :D Not to deny that, the best guitarist in the world also uses GIBSON :P Of course I'm not caught by GIBSON that way. It was Tom who inspired me to play guitar, and i love the brand Gibson because of..... the shape... the sound... everything? hahaha...

Oh ya, I also wanted a new sunglasses. I like sunglasses somehow. I mean theres a shape that I want. Just that I do not have enough money to get it. I also want another new wallet. My wallet is broken == I think I put too much stuff in my wallet? I loved that wallet since I first saw it... now still okay... but Im wishing for another 1 XD and I remember when I was small I wanted a set of colour pencils. the 48 in a set, got 2 rows and i can be folded. I still want it now. Cause i never had it :( dad only buy for sis, and I only good at colouring using colour pencil lols

I just got my lappy...I can't ask for another 1... dad got them for me... I was wishing to get a Mac, but since he get it without telling me, oh well :/ I wanted Mac because I want to play with the software inside huhu. I like editings and blablabla. Its really time consuming to do such a little stuff, but when you're done, you feel... good? I dont know how to describe the feeling. " the insanity of having thousands of possibility just to give a simple meaning and have the greatest satisfaction even its a short period of the whole cut."  she said.. Hmm...  I don't know anything about art... but I know what I like :)

I already know what I wanted in the future, I mean stuffs, like dreams. Example: house with those specifications.... I'm too lazy to write it out, its time consuming and its kinda complicated. Sometimes I'm really impressed about the brain, you can think so much of thing inside. XD

This is all whats on my mind now. My wishlist, I thought there's more, but I couldn't remember what was it. I keep forget it in a sudden. Oh well, I will re-update this post if I think of any stuff :P

I just know what I have to keep remind myself, not to be greedy, be satisfied with what I have. N Just to say that, its only my wishlist. WISHLIST. One facts about me, I dislike people to simply say stuffs I never do. Never say something that I never do or say or whatever. I feel like you're accusing me for doing something wrong. If I'm wrong in my sayings or something, I will admit if you are trying to correct me. But never said the thing I never did. I can't stand it. Just to be simple, I know what I did, you DON'T "change(say)" the facts and making rumors around. If I did something right, and you said I never do it, I'll get angry too. Usually I do something leaving the evidence behind. So no fake info or news. I will be honest. But don't trying to mess around. Don't simply talk, talk based on the facts and evidence :)

I wonder if you get me, lol I suck at expressing myself.

Kbye.

People

What kind of music do you like?
Who is the person you like?
I mean, its fine if its not me :/

I wonder what's not enough?
What, at the very least, is fine?
Even if i were replaced by someone else, no one would cared

What's your favorite movie?
What's your favorite word?
Is there someone you'd like to see now?
Well, its definitely not me, right? ><

:(

No, no, no future or the like
I won't, I won't, I won't have hope
Not here, Not here, no one is here
by my side
I want, I want, I want to laugh together
To notice, is all i want you to do
( No matter how hard i tried to overreach myself, I would always failed to get into your sight)

Who's the person you like?
Its definitely not me, Like that-
I was always giving up in selfishness
and hurt by my own conceit
I finally realized that as I've grown older
Hey, am I... am I too late?



我从来也没有想过
会有被“拆穿”的一天

你说啊　你以前就发现到了
haha .
You know i liked you,
It's just that i always lock myself in a smaller circle
So i only see both of you in my eyes
I only wish you both to be around
No one else

不願讓人看到真的我  生怕人會嫌我墮落
常常擔心會被人看透  只好層層包裹 退後又瑟縮
我把自己藏了起來 免得不斷受傷害   眼光閃爍尋找遮蓋 
我把自己藏了起來  心中卻深深期待  有一天我會遇見真愛

I always like things to stay how it was
Because I'm afraid sometimes it might change anything
I always liked you to whisper things into my ear
Because I like to hear the truths
I always liked how you can understand me so well
I said, you're always right
You said, GOD is.

I don't have much confidence in myself
Cause I'm ugly
Cause I'm not talented
Cause I'm nobody

I'll emo because I know
这已足够让我清醒
你们是不变的定律
I always have the concept that
选择这不变的定律　坚持
我一定被抛弃
Then I'll get the feeling I'm extra

I know that I can't change anything
I don't have friends who likely to stay around
I always see people, they have gangs,
I don't have.
I always see people, they go to canteen together,
I don't have.
I always see people , always be together
I don't have.
I always see people, always hanging out together,
I don't have.
I always see people, doing lots of other things with their friend,
I don't have.

I don't have it,
I never did it,
I'll never have it.

I guess I don't have to explain myself much about this
Even I don't, I know that you'll understand that
how important to me a friend is

You know I'll do whatever it takes to protect you from danger
You know I'll do anything for ya
I'll give you whatever you want, if you asked me

You know that day, I dreamed about you
( I often had dreams about you actually)
A guy with cap and black glasses
is trying to shoot you with a gun
I ran over, hug you and cover up all 3 shots for you
I feel glad that I'm the one who got shot not you lols
and then I remembered that I'm falling helplessly
I'm still holding your hand, you're arms actually
then you're holding me, nervously calling my name
Not letting me fall,
then i was in your arms already
and I don't remember whats next LOL
I just know that I won't let anything happen to you
even if its real

I don't like to see you get hurt
I don't like to see you in pain
I don't like to see you cry
Because when I see it, I feel them too
I'd like to replace you for your pain or the bad things that happened to you

Well, sometimes
You maybe forgot about me or
hurt me or anything else
I don't mind
You can do anything you want to me, because I love you this much, you see?

Cause you are so important to me
Cause you are more important than me, myself
Cause both of you are the only exception
Cause in your eyes, I'd really like to stay.....

I don't understand how you had replaced her, that's why I have both of you in my heart

One day both of you might leave me
"I never lose anything because I never had it"
I maybe mean nothing to you, but both of you are always that important to me

那天無意中遇上了你  看似偶然卻是天意
好像呼吸到愛的氣息  使我深深著迷 半信又半疑
我把自己藏了起來  你卻百般的擔待  向我敞開溫暖的胸懷
我把自己藏了起來  卻無力拒絕這愛  緊握你手再也不放開
我把自己藏了起來  藏在你的懷抱中  在你懷中再也不怕痛
我把自己藏了起來  藏在你的懷抱中  在你愛中海闊天空

God please hug me, let me hide in your arms
so I don't feel that hurt sometimes

Can I drive you home?

Can I crash into your life? 

在我眼中 你不曾失败过 :)