拥抱着 心 碎

那也许每个人都一样
心里捅下许多把刀
那 我只能 用我自己的 眼泪
把它当作咸咸 的海水
治好自己? :)
我也不懂。

My teary eyes proves that you're wrong, my stare provides no explanation... :)

为了你摘星星
I kept reaching for the sky
until I fell down n hurt myself
but I kept trying and trying
until my leg is broken
until I'm badly hurt
Sometimes I think you don't even appreciate what I did.
:'D

如果这样就能躲避一切．．．．．．．

有时候

我真的不明白

明明就有“自己人”在“现场”

为什么“你们”就不能开口　说说话

而害得迟来的“我们”

差一点　

也无法改变这结局

当时事实已不再是站在我的立场，这样无能为力的我，看着你， 我 很 心 酸。

考试成绩

达不到目标

这也不能怪谁

从来不曾读书的我

酱去考

but I expect that I would have done better than this

So don't expect, its better to get surprise then got disappointed :) 

There are many things I would like to say to you but I don't know how.

有时候　
考得　再怎么好
也好像得不到奖励
好羡慕　那些
成绩　屈屈那几个Ａ
可能就能得到iPhone,　电脑
而我的成绩可以比他们好几十倍
永远也得不到东西
有时我还很希望
我的成绩　可以很烂
这么一来，
考好了像现在的成绩
也许就可以拥有我想要的
东西

Tell me :)

如果有一天　我突然消失了

你会到处打听我的消息吗

如果有一天　我突然消失了

就这样　消失了...

那．．．

如果有一天　我不在了

你会想我吗

你会偷偷为了我哭泣吗

还是会把我忘了

这样未免　我　也太自私了吧　

如果有一天　我变成回忆

你们的生活会是怎样的

没有我的存在　也许你们是开心的？

如果有一天　我变成回忆

我可以当你的守护天使

时时刻刻保护你吗

我可以常常留在我朋友身边

不让他们受伤害吗

有时我在想

为什么我可以把

友情

看成一切

或许他们一点也不需要我

在友情里

不是我们不适合、

只是你们更适合。

有时

好怕一放心睡了

心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命

留下你错愕哭泣

我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行

我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不通气

顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙

要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去

这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈

若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

:)                                                

                                                       如果生命就此的那么简单   就像我把这部落格点上了一个句号。

全都 不见了

Words I never tell, words I can't tell, doesn't mean it had to be told. Its because even if i tell someone, no one would listen. So why do you even bother to tell. You can't expect someone to be with you all the time, all you can is depend on yourself. Its just like giving trust on someone so much, you'll get more disappointment in the end. I can't be selfish to own you for whole time. Yeah.

I feel like I'm a replacement for someone else. I only replace the people that you need which is not there, when they're back, I'm thrown away. Seriously I won't even complained about it, because maybe I don't even deserve it, too. Or you can call it, I am willing to do that myself, as I loved you as my FRIEND. I will be there when you need me, I will stay behind when you don't need me, and back you up when you fall down. At least its the only thing I can do. 

I don't like to see you got hurts, I feel the pain too. I don't like anyone to bully my friend. I will hit you in the ass if you do. To be true, I don't know what the heck I'm talking about. I took my friend as everything.

到底什么是安全感？

I'm getting more confused, so lost. I feel so scared, I don't know what to say, but no one would notice. 

I can feel there's a big distance between GOD and me, but I don't know how to fix it.

What if I'm the only one left behind.... ....

Trying to seek.......

到底那是他们虚假的一面 还是我被留在后

The feeling of fear is increasing everyday,

I can't help myself falling deeper and deeper again.

I need someone so much that I can't even open my mouth

Even if I have something to ask my parent, I can't even open my mouth

I don't know how, I don't know why

Sometimes I feel stupid with every move I did

I really feel lost and confused 

我连我最基本的信心也 不 见 了 

我不知道 它们 多到那里去  

连我的心也被偷了

怎么办

我很不想在你面前 奔溃 哭泣

不想让你看到 你可能觉得 是我 软弱 虚假 的一面

躲到我自己的世界里

在幻觉里

也许是自己欺骗自己的方法？

我累了

真的累了

好多事情想诉说

但我真的不懂怎么用言语表达

「我不要一个人在森林里慢慢腐化而去的命运」 

我的深索毫无疑问已经没有了希望

或说回来你已经是第几个人了？

只有虚幻的身体的人类...

凭依在不会老去的身体里

这永不断绝幻想

到底欺骗了我几次？

罪过与惩罚，都是我自己贪恋永生造成的

alone crying trying to sleep 

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很久很久以前，少女XXX前去森林

最后却传说她迷失了在那里

她永远放逐于这孤独的世界

很想和谁相遇，很想说说话，很想被人爱

欲望化作幻觉日日折磨她

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Follow the notes upon a journey

At first sight marks one's destiny

Once the voyage comes to an end

Return lies within hasty keys...

我刚刚睡着 天慢慢破晓