Monday, August 20, 2012

People

What kind of music do you like?
Who is the person you like?
I mean, its fine if its not me :/

I wonder what's not enough?
What, at the very least, is fine?
Even if i were replaced by someone else, no one would cared

What's your favorite movie?
What's your favorite word?
Is there someone you'd like to see now?
Well, its definitely not me, right? ><

:(

No, no, no future or the like
I won't, I won't, I won't have hope
Not here, Not here, no one is here
by my side
I want, I want, I want to laugh together
To notice, is all i want you to do
( No matter how hard i tried to overreach myself, I would always failed to get into your sight)

Who's the person you like?
Its definitely not me, Like that-
I was always giving up in selfishness
and hurt by my own conceit
I finally realized that as I've grown older
Hey, am I... am I too late?



我从来也没有想过
会有被“拆穿”的一天

你说啊 你以前就发现到了
haha .
You know i liked you,
It's just that i always lock myself in a smaller circle
So i only see both of you in my eyes
I only wish you both to be around
No one else

不願讓人看到真的我  生怕人會嫌我墮落
常常擔心會被人看透  只好層層包裹 退後又瑟縮
我把自己藏了起來 免得不斷受傷害   眼光閃爍尋找遮蓋 
我把自己藏了起來  心中卻深深期待  有一天我會遇見真愛

I always like things to stay how it was
Because I'm afraid sometimes it might change anything
I always liked you to whisper things into my ear
Because I like to hear the truths
I always liked how you can understand me so well
I said, you're always right
You said, GOD is.

I don't have much confidence in myself
Cause I'm ugly
Cause I'm not talented
Cause I'm nobody

I'll emo because I know
这已足够让我清醒
你们是不变的定律
I always have the concept that
选择这不变的定律 坚持
我一定被抛弃
Then I'll get the feeling I'm extra

I know that I can't change anything
I don't have friends who likely to stay around
I always see people, they have gangs,
I don't have.
I always see people, they go to canteen together,
I don't have.
I always see people , always be together
I don't have.
I always see people, always hanging out together,
I don't have.
I always see people, doing lots of other things with their friend,
I don't have.

I don't have it,
I never did it,
I'll never have it.

I guess I don't have to explain myself much about this
Even I don't, I know that you'll understand that
how important to me a friend is

You know I'll do whatever it takes to protect you from danger
You know I'll do anything for ya
I'll give you whatever you want, if you asked me

You know that day, I dreamed about you
( I often had dreams about you actually)
A guy with cap and black glasses
is trying to shoot you with a gun
I ran over, hug you and cover up all 3 shots for you
I feel glad that I'm the one who got shot not you lols
and then I remembered that I'm falling helplessly
I'm still holding your hand, you're arms actually
then you're holding me, nervously calling my name
Not letting me fall,
then i was in your arms already
and I don't remember whats next LOL
I just know that I won't let anything happen to you
even if its real

I don't like to see you get hurt
I don't like to see you in pain
I don't like to see you cry
Because when I see it, I feel them too
I'd like to replace you for your pain or the bad things that happened to you

Well, sometimes
You maybe forgot about me or
hurt me or anything else
I don't mind
You can do anything you want to me, because I love you this much, you see?

Cause you are so important to me
Cause you are more important than me, myself
Cause both of you are the only exception
Cause in your eyes, I'd really like to stay.....

I don't understand how you had replaced her, that's why I have both of you in my heart

One day both of you might leave me
"I never lose anything because I never had it"
I maybe mean nothing to you, but both of you are always that important to me

那天無意中遇上了你  看似偶然卻是天意
好像呼吸到愛的氣息  使我深深著迷 半信又半疑
我把自己藏了起來  你卻百般的擔待  向我敞開溫暖的胸懷
我把自己藏了起來  卻無力拒絕這愛  緊握你手再也不放開
我把自己藏了起來  藏在你的懷抱中  在你懷中再也不怕痛
我把自己藏了起來  藏在你的懷抱中  在你愛中海闊天空

God please hug me, let me hide in your arms
so I don't feel that hurt sometimes

Can I drive you home?
Can I crash into your life? 



在我眼中 你不曾失败过 :) 

Monday, May 28, 2012

Feelings


Desperate and so lonely, I've looked for you.
And even left behind all that I had ever longed for.
I let go everything of what i have possessed.
Cold winds scream through my ears like a banshee.
A freezing chill- A pain that still will forever haunt me.
My freezing body feel nothing but pain
My heart is filled with pain
I'm here, please get me out of here...
Tears fall like a rainstorm I barely see.
A twisted grin broken within. Am I going crazy?
Im here, its really painful.
Get me out of here, my prince.
And I wonder, why can't I even dream?


---The dreams seems to be fading away................................


心里挣扎!很难受!可是又不知道该怎么办!我觉得自己有时用太多感情,导致麻木..虽然很难受,但我一点也不想释放... It feels comfortable yet heartbreaking. 只因为喜欢折磨自己,把自己搞成这个鬼样....我也很想爱我自己,但我就是做不到!有谁不渴望被爱...有些人很享受他们的生活,有朋友,有爱人,可你成否想过,我什么也没有?!?!....而在这个世界上是如此的空虚....在这个世界上... 没有一个东西是属于我的......

谁知道未来会是怎样的风景???....
拍寫... 我也很困擾..... 
雖然喜歡你的微笑.. 很喜歡你天真燦爛的微笑...
可我害怕付出了真心 卻什麼都得不到.....
你從來都不知道 我對你有多好 就連命都可以不要!... 你說你其實早就知道 只是你不需
何必犯賤痛苦自找.... :'(

有時候你在身邊 有時候你會不見
那天聽你說愛我好多遍
那天你在身邊 而昨天你又不見
今天你說討厭我流淚

选择这不变的定律,坚持.... 一定被抛弃...
用情专一的结局 伤的都是我自己...
而想起我不完美,你一定会逃离我生命的范围.....
我只不过然你歇斯底里.......
和她在一起 你能快乐我高兴!

为了你 我选了坚持这不变的定律
因为一点也不想伤害你
因为疼你,宁愿你伤我不伤你
搞得我自己全身是伤

"You can do anything you want to me....
Because I love you this much, see?"

愛是幸福的消耗累得最值得
若愛你會累死 寧可放棄健康不看醫生
愛是深夜裡沒路牌的窄路
但如果你是黑暗 我寧可吹滅蠟燭而迷路

一点点痛的感觉加上我对你的思念~
你是我最想要得到的东西... 可惜在这个世界上 没有任何一样东西是属于我的~
被侵占所有还要笑着接受~
:'D
有时我宁愿伤到疯了痛到麻了也不愿找你 , 只因为害怕你的敷衍会再次把我杀死 :')
冷風吹在我的耳邊... 吹得讓我不能聽見!!...聽見你說過的誓言.. 已經消失在這荒原....冷風吹皺一片水面.. 喚醒沉睡著的時間..隱約看見你的容顏.. 只是眼神已經改變..........
而此刻的心情。。 明明已经要收拾好了。。
却一再又一再的被你撕开。。。
心 一刀又一刀的被你刮
是你吗? 还是我??
我知道 选择这不变的定律 我一定被抛弃
我只不过让你歇斯底里
下雨了 想你了 可我却被你忘了
现在只有空气了冷漠的回应
就算爱你爱你爱你爱你可能你也不想听
拍写,我真的真的很困扰
我不会怪你 我怪我自己
从头到来也许你根本没把我看在眼里
而是我把你看得太重
I never lose because I never had....
想起我不完美 你一定会逃离我生命的范围 

思念好像一条很长的路
至于多余的我 会悄悄离开
好好过下去 好报答我手松开的心碎


閉上眼睛 我想著你 可是你卻不讓我靠近
多希望在這個季節裡 
還有你 時間就停止在這裡
I'm not what you want me to be, I'm sorry

我眼中 剩下空洞
也保持著一抹笑容


我会把我在你记忆里删除,然后再把自己消灭......

光著腳我一路奔跑
鮮血淚水一路狂飆                                            

我們走過了昨天 走不過今天... 一直一直等待著明天 你會出現..........

“小姐,你的笑容 掉了。”
“那你有捡到吗?”
:')
你不懂我说那些话的时候我的心有多痛 :)

Saturday, December 24, 2011

拥抱着 心 碎

那也许每个人都一样
心里捅下许多把刀
那 我只能 用我自己的 眼泪
把它当作咸咸 的海水
治好自己? :)
我也不懂。

My teary eyes proves that you're wrong, my stare provides no explanation... :)

为了你摘星星
I kept reaching for the sky
until I fell down n hurt myself
but I kept trying and trying
until my leg is broken
until I'm badly hurt
Sometimes I think you don't even appreciate what I did.
:'D
如果这样就能躲避一切.......
有时候
我真的不明白
明明就有“自己人”在“现场”
为什么“你们”就不能开口 说说话
而害得迟来的“我们”
差一点 
也无法改变这结局

当时事实已不再是站在我的立场,这样无能为力的我,看着你, 我 很 心 酸。

考试成绩
达不到目标
这也不能怪谁
从来不曾读书的我
酱去考
but I expect that I would have done better than this
So don't expect, its better to get surprise then got disappointed :) 

There are many things I would like to say to you but I don't know how.
有时候 
考得 再怎么好
也好像得不到奖励
好羡慕 那些
成绩 屈屈那几个A
可能就能得到iPhone, 电脑
而我的成绩可以比他们好几十倍
永远也得不到东西
有时我还很希望
我的成绩 可以很烂
这么一来,
考好了像现在的成绩
也许就可以拥有我想要的
东西

Tell me :)
如果有一天 我突然消失了
你会到处打听我的消息吗
如果有一天 我突然消失了
就这样 消失了...

那...

如果有一天 我不在了
你会想我吗
你会偷偷为了我哭泣吗
还是会把我忘了
这样未免 我 也太自私了吧 

如果有一天 我变成回忆
你们的生活会是怎样的
没有我的存在 也许你们是开心的?

如果有一天 我变成回忆
我可以当你的守护天使
时时刻刻保护你吗
我可以常常留在我朋友身边
不让他们受伤害吗

有时我在想
为什么我可以把
友情
看成一切

或许他们一点也不需要我
在友情里
不是我们不适合、
只是你们更适合。

有时
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不通气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙
要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

:)                                                

                                                       如果生命就此的那么简单   就像我把这部落格点上了一个句号。